we both lost!!!
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Me & maegan both lost the bet sorta...Nick got me somethin but valentines day is over so its not for valentines day. so shes just gonna come over & we're both gonna make the cake.

GUYS ARE S -T- U - P - I - D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mood:  irritated
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all guys except for Nick piss me off sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Especially 2 in particualr...B & T GOSH!!! if you 2 were the last guys on earth i would kill myself. Seriously. You guys are stupid and if it was possible i would never in a million years ever talk to u again but sadly thats not possible. And B...you need to stop being such a jerk ass with a bug up his but & start being responsible & respectful & stop being so cocky and stop thinking ur gods gift to women and stop being the biggest asshole ive ever known. And T...you need to stop touching me & stop talking to me & stop being the grossest & 2nd biggest asshole ive ever known!!!

Tonight was fun
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i havent written in here is a loooooooong time but here's how my night went:Nick & Chris picked me up & we went to mcdonalds then we went to the game in holland then we went to his moms house for a little bit and then he took me home.His moms really nice. we held hands on the way home & when he dropped me off we all went inside & watched viva la bam & he kissed me just a lil peck though nothing big. I dont know though cuz i like him & stuff but im not stupid and i know that i dont like myself enough to let a guy like me & that always fucks everything up.I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! i think ill try for 5 pounds...maybe that will fix everything.AND i dont want to date someone like brenden...like attitude wise...& i dont know if he's like brenden or not.& about the game, i kinda felt a lil awkward cuz hes friends with people that i dont ever talk to or anything so here i am in the middle of all these people that ive barley said 2 words to in my life at a basketball game...that doesnt sound like something i would do. But dont get me wrong it was really fun.

please kill me
Mood:  blue
im such a fat PIG!!!! GOD! today for breakfast i had applesauce i forgot my lunch & pineapple juice but when i got home i ate 4 cookies a glass of milk & doritos & dip!!! and i dont like jeff anymore because i just dont and next year i might not try out for softball.

I went bowling tonight!!
Mood:  down
Instead of going to see coach carter Me & Kara went bowling and at first it was just me & her there then we found these guys and one was 22 or 23 or something & the other was a senior at puffer & they followed us around a while then a whole crap load of people started showing up & smoking & giving us lung cancer then right as we were leaving kevin & his friends showed up and i know it not kara fault & i totally dont blame her but im sorta mad at her dad & my dad for making their children be in so damn early. 10:30 on a friday night! wat a bunch of shit!I didnt have to be in that early but brenden usually does and now im gonna be trying to fix that rule for him and me both but i was sooooooooooo mad that we had to leave cuz we were just starting to have fun and i kinda wanted to hang out more

I <3 SOFTBALL
Mood:  a-ok
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Jake dyed his hair & no offense to the swim team but it looks really bad ON EVERYONE!!! And i kinda decided that i wasnt gonna like jeff anymore cuz he ignors me to much but supposidly all i have to di is stop giggleing evey time i see him so if he wants me to stop "giggleing" then i will & i wont even crack a smile around him. Lets see how he likes that cookie! lol and meagan is so insistant that i give jon a chance. Um this is just my opinion but shouldnt she at least check and make sure i make the cut before she tried to get me to go on a date with him? Anyways i think that really mean cuz its kinda a proven fact that guys dont like me and im obviously not their type or something. you know. And Katie, last night was soo fun!!! it was kinda like were back in summer rec!! Good Times :-) And im gonna try to get in to softball as much as i can and as late as i can...even if that means takin up more hitting and or pitching. and i think im gonna try to change my thursday line drives time cuz i have to miss an hour of softball and im gonna be home alot on that day & thats not good. Oh yeah im tryin a new diet!!!! its called the 2-4-6 diet. i think i like it.

Mood:  happy
OMG i could have SHOT myself today. I was walking out of 2nd hour & i turned to my right to tell sam that i said hi to jeff & i was like sam i said hi to him!!! & then after we laugh like stupid little girls i turn to my left & look at the wall & guess who is right behind me?... yep its jeff. So yeah thats my embarrassing moment of the day. And this mornign on the bus kevin sat with me & i was like i didnt know u know derek & he started freaking out & saying that i cant ever be alone with him anymore & he made me promise him like 3 times that i wouldnt. I thought it was very cute how he was bothered that i hang out with him. I was like awww! and i went bowling tonight!! I guess who showed up...derek. Yeah it was pretty creepy.but i had my boys there to watch my back :o) It was really fun though.

Mood:  happy
Now Playing: RASCAL FLATTS!!! *this everyday love*
I got my retainer today & i HATE it!! its huge & ugly & it tastes REALLY bad & i gagged on it tonight. Im not wearing it at school! Today was the new semester & guess whos in my 2nd hour now!?? Jeff. Yeah i felt so stupid cuz when i saw him i told sam & we were being girls really bad (screamin & laughing) & then i think he might have looked at us so then i was tryin to get her to shut up but i couldnt even shut up lol & i was shankin so i drew sams a picture. lol. Then at the end of class he cam over & talked to me...but he just asked if my brother was going to muskegon. lol thats something to get excited about! Oh & Julie & Sarah are mad at me & Kara for trying to introduce Jacob & Jenna & thats a bunch of CRAP ON A STICK cuz julie was the one that broke up with Jake and he doesnt care so she shouldnt either.